A Poem/Song
Eat me Alive
Don’t let the stuff on the inside eat you alive, that’s what they tell me.
The pain, the anguish, my mind races and I can’t go on some days
Its eating me alive on the inside (eat me alive)
Its eating me alive on the inside (eat me alive)
I suppress the doubt and chase the clout, but it still lives inside and eats me alive.
No one ever told me about a feeling like this, not my mama, not my daddy, No One.
I just want to run,
Run till the feeling is gone and not eating me up on the inside.
Days turn into nights, nights to weeks, weeks to months, months to years and I’m still hurting on the inside.
It just eats me alive, is something wrong with me?
I laugh and wear a mask like I’m cool but it’s fake.
Like the fake love I receive on the daily.
Will anyone really love me? Maybe.
Its eating me alive on the inside (eat me alive)
Its eating me alive on the inside (eat me alive)
I try to maintain and be the best I can be, without missing a beat.
But I wonder is that good enough. That’s what eats me alive on the inside.
No one tries to understand me.
It hurts me.
It tears me up on the inside…..its eating me up on the inside…
Who do I run too?
Who do I tell?
NO ONE!
No one cares and that alone eats me alive.
Its eating me alive on the inside (eat me alive)
Its eating me alive on the inside (eat me alive)
©Nichole Nichole
I had thought tape worms were a thing of the past? Maybe its the feels like 116 weather outside wrecking havoc on my brain. 🤔